Fire In My Bones

"If I say, I will not mention him, or speak any more in His name; his word is in my heart like a fire, a fire shut up in my bones. I am weary of holding it in, indeed, I cannot."
~Jeremiah 20:9

Just when you think you are on fire for God you read a scripture like this one. God takes you from that mountain top to that low valley in one swift wind. I thought I was on fire of God and then I realized that was not completely true. I was not so on fire that my bones felt like they were on fire. I was not so on fire that I could not hold it in. I was not so on fire that I could not contain myself. I just thought I was on fire.
What does it mean to be on fire? What does it look like to be on fire? These are not questions I can answer, because it will look different for everyone. I can not tell you what you need to do to be on fire other than fully giving yourself to the Lord. I am on my way to this amazing wonder and the new realm of my Christian walk. I am scared to death of public speaking and of a new language but even this will not stop the work of God in my life. God is so much bigger than my mild, lame stumbling blocks. I could sit here and give you a list of excuses of why I am not worthy to be called a child of God but in the end it does not matter if I think I’m worthy or not. It is by the grace of God that He counts me worthy. I will never understand but I do not have to; all I’m called to do is be a living testimony to my Lord and Savior. I am to tell people the unfailing love of God, the never changing faithfullness, and the steadfast grace. I am to tell the real life of a Christian and not to sugar coat it. I am to tell the good and the bad times, the blessings and the struggles. I am to tell about the Armor of God and the role it plays in a Christian's life.
I have to praise God for the lessons I have already learned while in Greece. Many of these lessons did not come from the classroom I’m sad to say but they come for the bigger aspect of things. They come from the everyday things you take for granted and the people you fail to listen to. They come from the best friend and the enemy. God can use any situation to further your knowledge as long as we go in with an open heart.
I can not finish this blog without telling about a few people that God has truly used to be a vessel for Him in my life.
I will start with Becky, and she is truly an amazing woman of God who God hand picked to put in my life. We are able to open up to each other and be real.
Next is Kaniela who I can not even begin to explain what He means to me. He is an incredible man of God who I respect with all my heart. I know God is moving in this man's life and He is using him in my life also.
Finally is Alex who has been so real with me. He is a city guy from the states but acts like you took him right out of the backwoods in Louisiana. He is an inspiration to me.
I love God and am astonished at His love and mercy to never leave us when we fall.